My son the Giraffe

Happy Halloween

Boooooo!!

In Loving Memory

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JAKE JUST

Missing since: October 30, 1998

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Hating Atkinson's Travel

I was talking to Brandy yesterday and by chance inquired about the return flight time from Cuba. I wanted to make sure that it wasn't going to interfere with work on the following day (Tuesday Dec 9th). What she told me was absolutely ridiculous.

It turns out that Atkinson's booked us on a flight at 2am in the morning. Which mean we will not land in Toronto unit 5am and then there is a two hour drive home. Can you imagine an 18 month old baby on a plan at 2am in the morning. That whole plane is going to hate me. And to add to the stress of it all we'll have to be out of our rooms by 10am the previous day. This leaves me the whole day and evening dragging our luggage around.

I will be calling Atkinson's this morning... I can only hope that he can get us on a flight during the day.

UPDATE: No luck - looks like we stuck flying in the middle of the night. I feel so bad for Ryan; I don't know how he'll handle all this activity during the night.

The little things...

This is a list of all the little things that bring joy to my life (in no specific order).

1. The sound of rain on the roof at night
2. Watching a thunder and lightning storm with my Dad
3. The feeling and sound of a warm summer wind
4. A whispered 'I love you' in the middle of the night
5. Ryan's hugs and kisses - Especially the unprompted ones
6. Getting a really great deal on brand name clothing and shoes
7. Home made cookies warm from the oven
8. The look of the snow when it clings to every branch on the trees
9. Having Ryan run into my arms every time I come in the door

No truth and integrity

Is there no truth and integrity in the world anymore?

It turns out that Brad’s brother Ted and his girlfriend Zoe are convinced that Brad has cheated on me – with two different girls no less (Rhonda Thompson and Brittany Desjardins). They even say they have photo evidence. The photos that they are talking about are on Facebook and were taken at NaNa’s in May of 2007…. Let me think – where would have I been that night??? I was at home NINE MONTHS PREGNANT!!

What bothers me most about this is that no one (other than Brad) felt I needed to know this. I may not know Zoe very well but I can tell you this - if I knew that Ted had been cheating on her, I would have told her about it. As for Rhonda Thompson and Bruttany Desjardins – if they are going around telling people that they have slept with my husband I have lost all respect for them. They just wish they could have what I have - a happy family!

Sitting Idle

If only it were so simple...

Bored

Well... we went to see that older home and well it needs $50,000 to $100,000 in fix ups! Even if I did have that kind of money I would sink into that house. The location simply does not justify that kind of effort.

I am trying to be positive but... well lets just say that I haven't been the easiest person to be around lately. And its not just this house stuff. I wish I could find the word to explain it. I just feel bored - I am in need of a change. Don't get me wrong - I have a great life. I have a husband that loves me, I have the perfect son, I don't have to worry about daycare, I have a great house (too small but great). I really hate feeling this way - there is just no reason for it.

I miss working on the house now that it's done... I have no more 'projects'.

Now that I no longer have the space to do my scrapbooking I can't be bothered to drag it all downstairs into the dinning room.

And painting... I simply don't have time and space for that either.

No creative outlet, no challenges at work and this baby fever I am suffering from doesn't seem to want go away.

Maybe its just a slump...

Another Option

I was looking through MLS again last night and found a house that I have previously overlooked. It is a 2243 sqft all brick 2.5 storey home. It boasts a large in town lot with single car garage. Spacious family room, separate dinning room and living room. A larger foyer with original oak trim. It has four spacious bedrooms on the second floor and 2 full baths.
It is close to both ELCAN and CompuSolve so we would not need a second vehicle and the property taxes would be much less. We are going to see it on Sunday. This may be a much better choice for us - and besides I have always wanted to live in a century home.

Family Photos

Open House

Well tomorrow is the Open House... I have a lot of cleaning to do tonight. I know that having it spotless is not going to be the determining factor in whether or not we get an offer. But its the only thing I have any control of. If nothing comes of it I am going to lose all hope that our place will sell before my 'dream home' is snatched up by someone else. I can only hope that there will be a good turn out and that someone will fall in love. My Agent called this morning to confirm that everything is a go for tomorrow. She mentioned how much the market has slowed down. She said that was both good and bad. Good - it's unlikely that my dream home is going to sell. Bad - it's also unlikely that my house will sell.

This whole process has been very emotional for me. One day I am very positive - I am sure the house will sell. All my co-workers have great things to say about the house and assure me that it will sell in no time at all. Other days I feel like I am on mission impossible and that I am kidding my self trying to sell in such a soft market. I just wish I had the means to secure this other home without having to dependent on the market conditions.

Bridesmaids' Dress

Brandy has found the dress that the bridesmaids' are to wear. And I really love what she has picked. I will wear this dress over and over. Can't wait for the wedding.

Stuck

I feel stuck… It feels like everything has come to a standstill.

• My weight has reached a plateau.
• My new job has become monotonous and slow – there simply is little to no activity on the programs I have been given.
• I don't make enough money.
• There is little interest on my house and it feels like my dream home is slipping away.

Everything seems like such a struggle. I am having a hard time being positive and motivated. I wish I could stay in bed all day and play with Ryan. Sometime I wish I was a person of faith. I could simply leave the fate of the world up to some divine power and take responsibility for nothing. But unfortunately I believe that I am a product of my own choices; that my mood , my feelings and my circumstances are all in my own hands. Sometimes being so idealistic really sucks!

It's choice - not chance - that determines your destiny.

There are two primary choices in life; to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them.

I discovered I always have choices and sometimes it's only a choice of attitude.

......... I tried - but it's just not working today :P

Disappointed